28M here. I've been single for a long time and have never had a relationship. Unfortunately, I got involved in paid sex and have been with around 7 escorts. I deeply regret this and often feel terrible about myself. I have dreams and goals, both for myself and to fulfill my parents' and sister's dreams, but my actions are causing me a lot of mental health issues and regret.
I want to stop these things but find myself falling back into it repeatedly. I'm worried about my future and how I will cope with these feelings if I enter into a serious relationship. How can I move past my actions and focus on my present and future? Should I be honest about my past with a future partner, and how can I build a healthy relationship despite my past? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.