I've (21F) always been an angry person, but lately I've started to realize some of the ways I think is not normal.
Whenever I get angry at someone, I wanna hurt them. I wanna punch, kick and hit them until they are limp and bloody. I wanna make them feel pain. Whenever I get angry, I can only calm down if I have a vivid and very detailed daydream about beating the subject of my anger half to death. I imagine the blood, the screams, the pain and it calms me down.
But I don't have these thoughts to ANYONE who makes me mad. My sister makes me mad but I never thought about her this way. I only want to hurt the bad people. Narsistic, egotistical, unempathetic, lying, evil people who hurt others.
What scares me the most is, I don't think this is wrong. I can recognize that it's not NORMAL but I don't think there's anything wrong with wanting the hurt people who hurt others on purpose. I think they deserve to be hurt, to feel the suffering they inflict. But again, I do understand that this is not normal.
Should I check myself in? Am I dangerous?