i graduated highschool in 2023 nobody expected me to graduate after the last 2 years of my highschool career kind of crashed and burned. school was really hard for me to do, not because i’m dumb just because i lack so much of the necessary motivation thats needed for it. i’ve honestly had no drive for probably the past 5 years now. i never had any goals in highschool because i really didn’t think i’d be alive right now? which, cringe, but like genuinely. i just want to know how other people can wake up every single day, get out of bed, take a shower, get dressed, and have a social and productive day without the feeling of constant existential dread? i really do want to apply myself and change all of this but it seems like i can’t be productive for more than maybe 3 weeks before im back in a complete and utter slump. i went to community college for less than a single semester before dropping out. i just need help being normal? i take adhd meds and bipolar meds already. they do help more so than not, it just currently feels like there’s no hope of leading a normal life or holding a normal job? i really wish someone would tell me HOW to just be motivated, if that makes sense? how do i want things for myself again?
