I’m crying so much I miss her she was my friend we were close friends we were friends for over 2 years we had good times together but my venting problem made things bad. She said I was like a sibling to her. I fucked up I lied to her without realizing I was lying to her I made her cry she had thoughts of suicide because of me everything happened so fast she cut contavt with me before that she called cps because of my abusive parents now she’s cut me off she called the police the night the social worker came I was scared she insisted on it she sent me a letter telling me she loved the time we spent togetheg and she signed it your friend rowan she said I would forever be her little sibling I was scared things would end I cried so much they didn’t it ended way worse I wished things weren’t like this I could see her I could hug her she said seeing any message from me fills her with rage it happened so fast I’m crying so much I had to hold it back earlier my nose is so stuffy I can’t breathe through it I’m in physical pain I want this to stop