Tbh my doctor tried to diagnose me with bpd but do to issues I had to leave the office so I never got a diagnosis. Tbh I’m in a lot of pain, for a long time I thought I just simply had depression but after doing ketamine which is supposed to be a last resort treatment for depression and I’m still feeling terrible I realize it’s more intense than depression. And tbh I should’ve realized sooner my symptoms are more than just depression. I feel so angry all the time and my heart aches… the only thing on my mind is death… idk what to do I’m loosing all hope for recovery… is there anyway I can cope and make life at least bearable…