I’ve just broken up with my girlfriend. In the end, I think that in the end, it’s better for me because I felt like the relationship was unhealthy. But, I also have the feeling of loss that I can quite explain. I’m really stressing out about it right now because I’m not sure if shes pregnant. I heard that it’s a rumor. Her mother blocked me on Facebook (even thought she said that she’d reach out to me) and my ex has left me on delivered and isn’t answering. Before we broke up, she was talking about her friend. Her friend was trying to baby trap her boyfriend into staying in her life and my ex disagreed with it. When I broke up with her, I went to her house. I walked into her room and there was an uncomfortable silence exchanged between us. She asked if I’m breaking up with her (she was expecting me to say no) and I said yes. I said that our relationship has run its course and that there’s someone better for her/better for me out there. She started crying and yelling “Why?” at me. Her mother walked in and tried to calm her down. After her mother left again, I tried to leave. My ex closed her put herself in between the door and me. Her mom had to help me get out by pushing the door open. She had to restrain my ex. My ex was screaming and crying trying to get to me, so I just ran out of her house and drove off as fast as I could. I’m not an emotional person, but I had to pull over and cry. The only thing I can think about is her asking “what happened to use having kids and getting married?”. I called my friend and we hung out. On top of this, I have to figure out how to move for college/clear up my admissions for college. There’s just so much going on right now. I just need peace. I know that I’ve just kind of ranted, but I just need someone to listen.
