Today, I witnessed a stranger take their life whilst i was waiting for my train home from school. I feel so sick. I can’t stop picturing it, i saw them jump out, and i heard it. It’s messing with me. I feel so gross inside, i don’t know how to react to this. I saw a part of his body at the station. I don’t know what to do
If possible, talk to a professional immediately. I am sorry that you had to witness this, but I believe that you will be fine. Talk to a therapist about it
You need to see a therapist as soon as you can. Does your school provide a counselling service? If not, there will likely be a community counselling service provided for you if you check with your doctor, especially since you witnessed something traumatic.
When I was on psych ward, I saw this a few times.
After the first time, I realised that we’re all in there for this particular reason and that we can’t control what others do.
Some of us can’t let go of a situation, some of us turn cold to it. Theres different ways people cope. I turned cold to it, the second time seeing it kind of helped, fuck, after the third time I didn’t even get out of my chair to see wagwarn.
You need to seek therapy and get help with this. It’s not an easy thing to witness, I really feel for you man
I am sorry, nothing you did caused you to be in that situation nor could you have prevented it.
It will sound weird but play Tetris. It is a therapy that may assist you before you are able to see a trauma counsellor. Make sure your counsellor is trauma informed and specialises in the treatment of trauma. You do not need further injury.
[Tetris for PTSD](https://theconversation.com/can-playing-tetris-help-prevent-ptsd-if-youve-witnessed-something-traumatic-226736#:~:text=The%20current%20evidence%20of%20Tetris,to%20reduce%20subsequent%20intrusive%20memories)
Did the police take your name? They may be able to connect you
Find a therapist to talk to about this now! I witnessed a horrific accident that took 2 lives less than 40 feet away from me in 2009 and it still haunts me. If you cannot afford therapy, please find a support group where you can talk to people about what happened and get advice on how to process what you saw.
I mean, at least you didn’t have to watch the light go out of his eyes – sounds as though he wanted it to be quick and painless, and achieved this. It was a little rude, to do it so publicly, but pain pushes people farther than they’d normally be willing to go.
You think about their family, if they had any; how many people knew them, and what they thought of them. You think about the legacy they leave behind, the people they will now never meet, nor the conversations they’ll have. You think about the youth in that persons life, who will now grow through every stage of life, every celebration and tribulation, unwitnessed by the person who’s now dead.
Then you realise they’re dead now, they don’t care; they’re unable to care. Eventually the memory softens and life carries on, and eventually it becomes one of those fucked up stories you only share with people you’re close enough to.
You’ll get there, it’ll just be shit for a while. Talk to people, smoke some weed (if that’s your thing), touch grass – then make sure you’re tired enough to sleep the whole night through. It gets easier
It’s going to be okay 👍 Please make sure you reach out for help
And support. We are here for you!
I am so sorry you had to experience this 🙁 I agree with the others in this thread – it is very important to talk to a professional as soon as possible. That being said, it can be hard to get an appointment/find a reasonably affordable option on short notice. If you’re open to it, there are some pretty amazing chatbot/AI therapy tools out there that can be helpful to talk things out with in the meantime. Hang in there < 3
Sending you lots of positive vibes, I’m sorry you witnessed this. Are there any 24/7 mental helpline numbers you can make a note of in case you have trouble sleeping or wake up in the night and need to talk to someone?
Thats horrible what happened, you hear of this happening but only a handful of people ever see it. It can be frustrating feeling like you’re not in control of your own mind but you are in shock, this must have happened so quickly and now your brain is trying to make sense of it in a way that is completely distressing. These are flashbacks and it seems you have some PTSD, hopefully it will only be temporary if you talk, talk, talk. Talk to everyone that will listen. Don’t expect too much of yourself during this time, you are in recovery, yes it is mental rather than physical but the same protocols should be in place: rest with your feet up, drink plenty of fluids, breathe deeply
Please… get help. God bless you 🙏🙏🙏
Seek help before it’s something that randomly comes back to haunt you simply because you tried to just brush it off. Even if you didn’t even know the person, those actions and the reactions you may have to it can affect you. Hope you’re doing ok!
don’t we all need help with our mental health. 💔
I’m sorry you had to witness that. Witnessing death is not easy. I seen a young kid pass out and later die from a heat stroke. Most haunting thing ever. I rarely talk about it but I think I’m an open up a little more about it to heal some underlying wounds.
Therapy helps. Close support system.
I’m so sorry you had to see that. Nobody should ever have to experience that.This is certainly not a solution, but it might be slightly beneficial to play some Tetris in the meantime, and while you’re doing therapy. My wife and I both play at times to take our minds off things like that too.
“Tetris may be useful as an adjunct therapeutic intervention for PTSD. Tetris-related increases in hippocampal volume may ensure that therapeutic gains are maintained after completion of therapy”
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7828932/
Just know, it will get better. This was not your fault.Give yourself time and feel your feelings. Give yourself permission to cry. It might even feel like you could have done something to help, but don’t entertain those notions. Don’t be afraid to lean on your support system. The first time I watched somebody die (note I did not watch anybody unalive themselves so this is not nearly the same) stuck with me, but by allowing myself to feel the emotions tied to that, know that their pain was not my fault, and that horrible things will happen that I cannot change, I was able to at least usually remember it without reliving it everytime.
Please go speak to a professional, I couldn’t imagine this. I hope you get the help you need 💚
I’m so sorry that you went through that. If you aren’t already in therapy, please seek it out. It could really help you process this
I know this is so inconsiderate because someone lost their life but it just sucks how you can be doing so good mentally and just being somewhere at the wrong place at the wrong time can mess you up.