I have had a pretty tough time the last 2 years, I've been bullied, job hunting in a highly competitive field, and sexually assaulted twice. I try to think past it and try to carry on and not let it affect me too much.
Recently, I moved in with a person I thought was a friend but it turned out she was just using me to do the chores and to take care of the house. She never even bothers about any repair issues or anything. When I confronted her on this, she just said she's not going to do much because she's going away to her boyfriends place. I've been feeling really isolated in this country right now, away from family. And my manager at work has been giving me a really hard time and dumping so much of work on me. I've been working 2 jobs to get experience in my field, while doing another job which pays the bills.
Because of this my family decided to visit me. And when they did, my mom just kept fighting with me for small things almost every day. I just felt hopeless, yesterday she made a fuss about nothing and my sister started to cry about us fighting. Which triggered a lot of anger and sadness, I had suppressed over the last few months and I pushed my mom away from my sister. After this we had a fight but I felt terrible for pushing her. I love my mom a lot and I've always wanted to make her proud. And now that I've done this, I feel like there's a lot of anger in me that I've suppressed and I really want to try and manage it. How do I do this?
My family will be leaving this weekend back home and I just really want to make things okay with her because they are all I have. My mom is the kindest woman I know, who gets really worked up with her stress and worries which is why she scolds me. I never want to hurt her again.