Recently it was finally revealed to me that I was groomed seven times by several different tactics. It’s my fault that this happened…well it feels like my fault cause these were online abuse. Basically they would talk to me for a while, make everything comfortable and then boom…everything goes to heck.
This started when I was 15 years old..with an 18 year old. He constantly sent me his nudes, I wouldn’t save them but eventually he started asking me and convincing me everything would ok so I did…now I regret it. This happened again with a dude my age when I turned 16 multiple would come out as being friendly and would play these phone games with questions. I always chose the normal ones, but they chose the sexual ones…after a while I asked to video call them, but they all said no(Yeah I know now that was red flag)
In my state 17 is the age you may send, so the last time isn’t even considered grooming…but all those other times have left me miserable, fearing for my life. I have looked up the legal ways to fight this but they all say the same “Evidence” something I do not possess because these evil people deleted their traces and I blocked them.
Yes I have told my parents about this and they said never send again..and this isn’t your fault. You’re the victim…doesn’t feel like I am..feels like I’m a monster….I wish I could forgive myself but it’s too hard.