I am a bit concerned with the state of my mental health. I feel a sense of numbness I haven’t been able to shake for quite a while. I literally stepped in a puddle of dog pee. No reaction, no expression. Nothing.
There are so many instances where I’ve felt like I should have felt something, love, happiness, ANYTHING.
I could be handed a million dollars or whacked in the face and probably still have the same emotionless reaction. I find it really hard to make connections because of this leading to me being extremely alone. The only emotions I experience is are crankiness and irritability.
I just want to be normal and have normal reactions and emotions. And not feel like I have to put on a performance. I’ve been hoping that the fake it, til you make it mindset, would eventually get me to where and who I want to be.
I plan to seek professional advice but am struggling and wanted to get advice from y’all in the meantime.