I know this sounds horrible. I truly loved my ex boyfriend, but I could only orgasm if I imagined I was having sex with a woman. I stopped imaging and just looking at him, and I couldn’t orgasm, and I thought it might’ve just been falling out of love because he was abusive. It was a good relationship in the beginning, but it became extremely abusive. I feel wrong for this. I really do feel bad that I’d imagine being with woman while with him. I feel a lot of shame, and I don’t know if I’m bi, or a lesbian. I just keep feeling extreme shame.
