Ever since I can remember, I’ve always had voices in my head that would provoke me into doing impulsive things. I am a teenager, this stuff really affects my life. My therapist (I’m getting a new therapist soon) told me that she thinks I have bipolar disorder. I am dealing with lots of depression and anxiety as well. I’ve recently been having the same reoccurring thoughts about taking a meat pounder and smashing my wrist. That’s all I can think about. This morning, that’s what I tried to accomplish. I hit it over and over, but my mom arrived back home. She didn’t realize what I was doing,so she thought I was trying to kms. I wouldn’t let her touch me and I honestly tweaked out. This ‘tweaking out’ thing isn’t new. She soon realized the damage I did to my wrist. I couldn’t move it and she unknowingly tried to grab my wrist several times. It’s swollen and it hurts so bad, but it’s not broken. I don’t know. Every time I move it something cracks. It’s bright red and purple. Someone help me.
