I decided to leave a job because something bad happened in it and I don’t want to be in that kind of company anymore. My mental health got destroyed to the point I get sick physically.
At first, I thought that with my skills and experience it will be easy for me to find a new job but three months have passed and I can’t get one even tho my skills and experience are very in line with their job descriptions. Rejection after rejection even though the flow of the interview was great, endless initial interviews, to the point na that I feel they are just playing with me and creating ways not to accept me lol.
It’s taking a toll on me because I really thought things will get better after the stress I got from that previous job, my mental health is getting affected to the point that I attempted suicide last April 16. I realized that maybe I was just put here to suffer because stuff that makes my life miserable keeps on coming back and repeating a cycle or something, it’s like I need to suffer first before feeling that short lived happiness that I want. I’m already in my fucking 30’s and the universe can’t even give me a break.
I can’t even fix my mental health issues bow coz I was literally broke and no one can help me financially (I already tried). So I feel it’s better to off myself. I just can’t fully do it because I have very few people left in my life who will be super devastated if I did it and I don’t want them to live with the trauma.
But after all this stuff, I will never regret that I left that job even tho the consequence is this, I still feel resentment towards them actually because of what they did.