I want nothing more than to go and spill my guts to someone that can help me figure out what's wrong with me, I've wanted it for a long time, but I'm always worried that once I do I'll be pushed off and told that my problems are just in my head and I need to move past them or that they're really not that bad. I'm also not at my wealthiest as some people can relate and Im worried about paying for such services, I have insurance but I still don't know how much that will cover. I've been recomended several times to go see someone but I always put it off and try to forget about it. I don't really know how this stuff works but I know it takes time for it to do anything and I'm sure whatever I'm suffering from is something that shrinks see all the time, like doctors with private parts.
I feel like I'm on the edge of something really bad, I'm going to see a new doctor about some meds this week to help me get back on track, and if I do, I might consider going to see somebody, but as of now I just feel exausted, worthless, and angry, and I have for a while now.
Should I bring some of this up with my doctor, or save it for later? I really just want to get back on the perscription I took as a kid, I feel like it's been long enough that it would work again and my body wouldn't build up a tolerance as quickly, but I'm worried they'll think I have other motives for wanting to get back on a controled substance.