Lately life has just been not enjoyable to me. Not to say I don’t enjoy or love certain things but I really just don’t wanna keep going, it’s so much work for a “successful” life that’s unguaranteed, I see all my friends moving up and being happy and it’s not that I’m unhappy for them, but I just wanna know when I get to be happy, I’ve been pretending since sophomore year that I’ve been perfectly ok, the amount of times I’ve said “I’m just tired” is probably uncountable and no one ever really asks me how I’m doing, it seems like no one outside of my family actually cares about me
