We got into a fight today over the child support my mom only paid me 220 this month instead of 330 and went on a whole rant about when I spent 50 at Ulta and made me seem like an ungrateful spoiled brat. I know I’m spoiled but sometimes I just idk. She don’t know that I’ve been struggling. Alot. I wanted to feel pretty so I got a refil of my favorite lip product and my conclear which I both ran out of. And now I regret it so much I feel bad for wanting to like the way I look when she goes and spends thousands on how she looks idk anymore. It’s been getting so hard lately I don’t think anyone likes me. Sometime I just wanna cut again. I know I shouldnt but i dont even know anymore im not gonna eat tonight maybe if im skinny shell like me better. That and it seems like my brother doesn’t seem to stop getting money i have no idea. It’s not about the money it’s the fact that when I try to vent and tell her she tells me to stop the drama and sometimes I just idk even know I have no idea why I feel this way. Sometimes I wish I didn’t have her as my mom its said to say but Karen is more of a mom to me that she is sometimes. Idk what to do anymore im just i dont even know.
