I wrote a Bible containing pretty much everything I've gone through in my life a few weeks ago when I was drunk af, uhh read it if you fuwkwbwuwkqjqbqj.
Right now I'm on 300mg of pregabalin and even under its influence I can't talk to other people. Not to my the family of my sister who I came to visit two days ago. Not to the only friend I have. Not to random people on chats online. Uhggf I wasted most of the days of the last 5 years locked in my house in almost complete social isolation. Gradually I began speaking less and nowadays I say like 15 words a day.
I'm forgetting not only how to speak and socialize with others. I'm forgetting how to articulate my thoughts into words. I can no longer just say shit, be it out loud or on my mind, naturally. I feel like I have to force my brain to spit words.
I have no personality and I have the social skills of a shy toddler. I'd appreciate if someone was willing to talk to a boring useless fuck like me