Currently it's like 3:30 in the morning, I want to sleep but I can't, I feel this restless, uncomfortable feeling.
Kinda like scared or anxiety. I'm 17, been dealing with depression and anxiety for a very long time, but as of now I'm much better because now I've actually tried helping myself out (idk how to explain this but just wanna say I'm very much better with my consciousness, because I have had experience some really dark times) tonight is the end of my summer vacation that I used to heal myself and kinda get better, still growing and developing to help myself out.
But I have school in just a few hours, and though some days ago I thought I was prepared to be attending school as normal (I have a long history for my anxiety and fear for school) I'm very restless right now, I tried making myself calm, feel confident or just simply relaxed but nothing is working, my eyes are hurting.
In just about two hours I'd have to get up to go, but here I'm so disoriented, I'm wishing for some rain deep inside so that I can somehow skip today because I just feel a little scared. I don't even know how to explain this feeling or if someone's gonna understand or not but I have no idea right now.