Ever since I could remember, started around 8- 10, never stopped.
It’s been 10+ years and it has never calmed down, never ever, I thought it was just a normal part of being a teen but it’s gotten worse and more disgusting as I got older.
I can’t help it, I can’t fucking help it, everything needs to be sexualized, my art, everything I wear, the things I talk about, everything, I’ve been sexualizing my poor hygiene caused to deteriorating mental health, it’s so fucking gross, but it makes me feel so calm and comforted.
Everything, everything everything I do needs to be sexualized, my struggles needs to be sexualized, everything.
I’ve developed weird kinks due to being exposed to them at a young age, they just never left, I indulge and indulge and indulge only to have them become more extreme and gross.
Everything I do needs to be sexual, every single little thing, everything I make, everything I think about, it’s clogging up my fucking mind and I can’t get a break, not even a 10 minute break where I can just be normal.
I don’t have a history of abuse, which confuses me, I don’t know why I’m like this which just makes me hate it even more.
It’s so comforting
So safe
I wish it could just stop
Being exposed to those things at a young age is abuse
So …you started having sexual thoughts around age 8-10 and now, roughly 10 years later, you’re still having them? So you’re like 20 years old and constantly horny? Yeah, that’s normal.
Don’t overthink it and do try not to develop too many kinks as that can be inconvenient but like.. I think you’re probably not nearly as bad as you think you are.
I’m sorry you’re going through this. The shame is really hard to deal with. Therapy really helps.
My friend, you are probably suffering from an addiction. The type of addiction doesn’t matter. There is nothing inherently dirty about sex and seeking sexual gratification. It feels good and is fun. The issue isn’t the sex. The issue is that you need the feeling to cope. It happens to people all the time. Addiction is all about reward and anxiety. You are a good person and you can fix this. First of all, don’t stress about it. You are not doing anything that can’t be undone. You are not “tarnishing your soul” or any of that other nonsense. In your case you could substitute sex with back rubs and your issue is the same. You have an unhealthy relationship with self gratification probably as a result of maladaptive coping strategies. It happens. Get some professional help and it will be a thing of your past in no time. You can do it.
I don’t know much about this but isn’t there any medication you can take to get the sex drive down?
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Yeah I’m the same freaking way man. I pushed someone away from wanting to like be with them. And my hypersexual stuff kicked in and…I regret it. I pushed away such a good person. These past two days I have been grossed out by my hypersexual stuff. I’ve been looking at becoming celibate or Asexual.
Which kinds do you have that you consider weird? Kinds are called that because they usually aren’t the norm. There’s probably others out there that like what you like.
You didn’t indicate whether you’re M or F. Not to be prurient but it may be relevant to how it gets addressed
Anxiety and stress caused this for me. Porn was my way to relax anytime I felted sad or stressed. So it’s a reflex. Try going on a walk, run, lift weights, hang with a friend, eat, anything else when you’re feeling that way.
Have you been assessed by a psychiatrist? Could be addiction, ocd with sexual themes, bipolar or something else. Lots of people go through this and I know personally having sex from the same age, it’s a weird and shameful feeling sometimes thinking back to how it all started and where I am now, but getting help and talking to a professional helped me with the shame and start addressing the underlying issues. Good luck to you xx
Same man same…exposed to porn at like 8-9 another kid explained what jerking off was at like 11 and I’ve been addicted heavily since… I’m 27 now looking back I was exposed to a bunch of different kinds of sexual assault without knowing from my older cousin always wanting to play the “are you nervous game” to being shown how a woman pees by an adult woman at like 7…pretty sure something was mentally wrong with me back then but it’s worse now because learning was never a strong suit but NOW it’s extremely hard to sit and read something probably because of the brain rot…masturbating went from curiosity to a coping mechanism to an dark addiction.
i dont feel like i have a right to give advice on this topic, but i feel a need to say: hey, me too. you’re not alone in this.
This is prime therapy territory.
Shame should be reserved for behaviour that affects people negatively. Not for stuff you do that don’t harm anyone.
You should find a professional therapist, they can help you
Don’t repress.. embrace it with love. If it gets in, masturbating focusing on loving someone and being loved emotionally, rather than physical or taboo is a potent way to gradually reduce this
Redirecting when these thoughts arise towards feelings of a deep compassion towards these parts of yourself leaves nothing behind..
Does that sound like something that can help?
Hypersexuality is common among peopld with bipolar
get on an ssri. that shit will absolutely trash your sex drive/desire