(21m) Unfortunately i can’t go to therapy because of financial problems since every penny is going to my college expanses.also sorry for my bad English in advance. It’s not my first language
I’m facing some problems getting used to the new environment of college even though it’s my second year in this uni still stuck with the first years so i put this points related to my life that could be linked to adhd.
So to begin with whenever i study I don’t maintain a posture for a long time.usually i put my legs on the chair while studying and then keep one leg on the chair and start changing between left and right. i only do that at home or when studying alone.
Have extreme brain fog while studying maths or physics and maybe start eating my pen or doing stupid activities but I feel completely immersed when studying computer science because i enjoy coding
Always flickering my pen even in exams( got a lot of comments about that)
I drink usually half a litre of a water daily because i forget to drink (i rarely drink coffe or soda which lead me to wonder how is my body still functioning)
Sometimes i forget what i am supposed to do while i am midway going to to that thing
Always start projects but never finishe them (making a website and taking care of it despite it having high traffic/ starting a YouTube channel despite having 2 ou 5 first videos have more than 3k views / reading half a book in one setting than forget it about completly )
I don’t how to describe this but i think don’t feel saddened for someone else maybe i feel empathetic towards but it just can’t trigger sadness if someone lost a precious a member of their family or see someone crying and don’t feel saddened i just feel empty even in the death of my grandmother but if something like harsh or injustice towards me i could easily start crying on the spot
And finally despite searching for everything that can help me study in the productivity space i just can’t bring myself to study despite my family doing everything for me and my future depands on it but i just keep procrastinating even when i know whole heartedly that i have to bring my self to study still no consistent results