My name is Kaii, I’m a suicidal teenager who tried to off herself. Only a few family members know this. And some of my friends. I talked to my friend recently about why I think my “friend” is suicidal. The person I talked with seemed chill about talking about it since she thought I was joking around, but what she doesn’t know is I enjoyed that conversation a lot. After that, I realized that talking about suicide might be really weird to some people. Whenever I bring it up to my other friends they try to change the topic, idk why. I thought everybody are okay with talking about it. Also, I am going to a therapist and I always talk about it. They asked me one time when we were together “do you have suicidal thoughts?” I told them I do sometimes, and asked them why they think that. They said “because you talk about suicide a lot lately.” I told them “isn’t it normal?” They didn’t respond to that. I thought I was pretty normal but everyone around me seem to not like talking about suicide. I just find it fascinating how many ways you could die. I have tons of ideas in my mind every single day. Even when I look at random objects I can get like 10+ ideas of how to die because of them. Thanks for reading, do tell me your opinion on this matter.
