“To be honest, academically, socially, and financially, I’m doing okay. I mean, compared to others, I’m confident and brave. The thing is, this is how people see me: great and fine. But I feel terrible; I feel weak and I hate myself. Eighty percent of the time, I’m procrastinating and feeling unhappy. I’m the problem because I set really high standards and goals I know are feasible, but I don’t have the energy, or I don’t feel like achieving them. What I’m saying is, I’m average in society and so mediocre in my vision. Myself tortures me so bad; I’ve become self-inflicted and got extreme depression for several years. I don’t know if this is a disorder or if it has a name or is a common thing, but I really feel sad 90% of the time, and sometimes I have serious thoughts. Thank God I have a family. Please, what do you think about this? I wish I could just enjoy my average accomplishments. Help.
