I can’t tell if what I’m experiencing is normal or not, so it seemed like a good idea to get unbiased opinions.
As far as I can tell, I act like any average person. A bit shy, but that’s all. Mentally, I don’t know if I’m normal. I constantly bounce back-and-forth between ideas/opinions. It can get to a point where I’m scared of myself. Anyway, I feel like I can’t trust myself because of how quickly I change. I can never tell if what I’m feeling is real or not. Still, I’m easy to irritate or sadden, and I’m self-serving at times yet selfless at others. One moment I could genuinely think that I’m superior to everyone around me, that nobody is as sentient or real as I am, which often makes me wonder if everyone that exists is simply created to get reactions from me. If everyone was made to test me, or if everything they do that I dislike was done on purpose to get under my skin. But, minutes later, I could feel worthless. As if I’m a joke that was created to make everyone else look better.
Anyway, I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember. Do I have any reason to be concerned, or is this normal? I’m not asking for medical advice. If this is abnormal, I’ll talk to my therapist about it.