I keep thinking about the day at school I had last week.
Every single senior at that school all together in the gym, yet I sat completely alone for 1 hour and 30 minutes. No one to talk to, nothing to do, no where to go, no one to care. Hearing about how everyone had their lives figured out meanwhile I sat there on that list of those people who had an ‘undecided’ decision plan. I tried to see if you could maybe see me any photos but no, you can’t. I don’t think I’ll show up in the yearbook, I don’t think I’ll be mentioned anywhere for anything.
Instead of going to therapy like I should’ve last week I just was forced into a gym with people who I didn’t know or didn’t like me, completely alone with no one to talk to. I was surrounded by everyone, but I was still completely alone despite that.
I think that’s probably the worst feeling ever, and one that’s been sticking with me since last Wednesday. Because if I’m really that alone to where no one even notices me or likes me, what the point in even doing anything?