I was born poor, mother decided to pay with a man that had no intentions on succeeding with her or helping her. Bad father, no friends no family shitty job I’m only 20 buts Im just done trying to find new ways to make money just so I feel secure, everyone I run low on money I’m stressed, I’m always stressed my brain is always thinking constantly just going thoughts just piling its fucking annoying I want quietness. I’ve accepted I’ll just be poor, I’m done hearing my grandmother stress me to work hard and get a good career and find a good man and have a family. Life isn’t like that anymore, especially for us (talking about being a black women). If she couldn’t do it why does she think it’ll be easy now? I’m going to let myself at ease now, I’ll just work this shitty job until, well whatever happens. Let’s see what happens