Like in the title, I’ve been avoiding my friends texts, phone call just anything that has to do with them and I can’t exactly pinpoint why.. I do feel guilty sometimes but most of the time I feel happy and comfortable not contacting them plus I realized that I’ve been lashing out on my mother quite often over dumb things but then immediately afterwards I feel so guilty and upset that I sometimes cry, like why did I do that why did I yell at her like that .. growing up my family never really taught us how to apologize or even say the word I’m sorry so I don’t know how to express my emotions to her and I don’t understand what’s wrong with me