About a month and a half ago me and my girlfriend of two years at that time broke up. I made her feel like she wasn't loved enough, cared enough, i've hurt her and made her feel so alone during the last part of the relationship. I feel like the worst person in the world. In this time I've tried my best to get to the best version of myself but for the past week I've only fallen more and more into despair and hate for myself, to the point I am thinking of ending it. I have a long history of self hate and that also affected the relationship. I don't know. I'm trying to move on but I cannot forgive myself no matter how nuch I try. The wounds I caused her will remain, the feelings I left her with will be there and I just destroyed a light that shined so brightly, just because I was imature. I hate myself