last may i got into a really terrible relationship with somebody that lasted about 10months. around month five he broke up with me, and then proceeded into a cycle of breaking up with me and getting back together with me. it was all terribly toxic but i didn’t see this until afterwards and now we are no contact and i’m not sure i’ll ever hear from him again. i don’t cope with abandonment well, and i feel just ruined as a person. i don’t eat or sleep and i don’t ever really find comfort in anything anymore. i feel like my whole life has been this huge cycle of almost getting to a place where i’m happy, and then getting knocked down again. i feel very disconnected from everything and like my life is over. i know i’m still young (m19) but i truly feel like there is nothing out there to look forward too, and no light at the end of the tunnel. i guess im just asking for some type of motivation or if anybody has any success stories. thank you
