I don't know where else to turn to. My friends have supported me as much as they can but the best they can offer is words of encouragement. My mom is a long time abuser of ambian and alcohol and has an undiagnosed schizotypal disorder. Last night we took her to the hospital because she collapsed in the back yard having followed my father outside to scream and berate him over a minor argument at dinner. She had been drinking since that afternoon and had gone through two bottles of white wine and downed a fistful ambian with it. She was cold to the touch, delirious, and with a none existent heart beat. After managing to drag her barely conscious into the car we took her to the hospital. We waited there for over 5 hours only to be told she was fine, and given a passive aggressive comment directed at her to watch her drinking and stay off the ambian. This morning she slept through most of the day only to come back out of her room in full force demanding more ambian and screetching about how its my dads responsibility to find her a new alternative drug to take. She regularly mixes alcohol and sleeping pills, destroys half the house in her emotional, disoriented state. She is incredibly paranoid that my father will take her job from her (they work at the same company together), is incredibly narcissistic even in her sober state, and constantly reminds people of their faults, and what she perceives we owe to her. She has been like this most of my life but as noticeably gotten worse with age. She refuses to go therapy as she believes she is more intelligent than the therapist. I'm 21 years old turning 22 in a month, i have become fed up with her as have my sister and my father. We cannot continue to live like this. My father is considering divorce, I dont blame him. He as well as me and my sister, are concerned she will hurt herself, hurt someone else, or wind up in a psych ward if she is left alone. I feel like we have no way out, i don't know what i expect from this post, i just need to vent. There is more to her behavior but it take all night for me to explain every grievance and nuance. I'm just tired, i know she will never change and as much as my father begs me to be patient with her, i cant do it anymore. I just want to escape.
