I always know that im a bit messed up in the head, but not too bad.
have problem with standing up for myself and always been a people pleaser. my brother is kinda the same.
i usually think im a positive person and as i grew older i became also kind of confident about myself, so i never felt like i needed therapy ..even if i have some drug and alcohol abuse tendencies and consider myself a bit of a weirdo.
ANYWAYS to get to the point.
i’m pretty sure that the reason for all my mental problems comes from my parents. but on the other side i kinda feel bad to blame them because they are not bad and they always put family as a priority they gave me a lot etc..my mom is super lovely extra caring…she and my dad always worried about me( maybe sometimes a bit too much)
the only thing is that i felt always misuderstood by them and not valued enough, i know is not their fault…we have just different personalities.
i guess im just kinda venting.
is it wrong to want to blame them?
am i not remembering some traumatic event or parents behavior that caused me to be this way?
im sure there is something wrong and i would like to have therapy but can’t afford it
thank you so much to who reads all this 🥲😝😊❤️