Lately i've been wondering.. they say that socialising is one of the basic human needs and yet.. i'm starting to suspect that perhaps i shouldn't be around other people at all..
i've noticed that every time i try to maintain a relationship of whatever nature, it all falls apart since i either ghost them due to how awful i'm doing most of the time, i mean i very barely even function, or when i try to confide in them and perhaps ask for support they simply move away on their own and it's just..
is it impossible to have decent relationships with other people when one is severely affected by mental illness?
At this point, given how unwell i am, despite how much i would like to have friends and lead a normal social life, i wonder whether it's even fair of me to try to engage. i honestly don't think i have much to offer other people.. i'm flaky, unreliable and require a lot of support and accomodations.. and it just feels.. unfair to other people.. due to my poor mental and physical health i always end up being a burden to them, one they quickly grow tired of.. and it just generally sucks..
still.. being this lonely certainly is troublesome..
seems this really is one of those situations without a proper way out, huh?
so i'm really not sure what i should do.. does anyone have any advice regarding my situation? perhaps someone has experienced something similar before and could share their story?