due to mental health reasons that i’ve not really shared specifics with parents, im dropping out of university, ive told my mum and dad im dropping out, i had to explain without detailing as im not prepared to tell them or reach out to them for help. they’re very complex old fashioned people. Ive struggled a lot with sh, panic attacks, eating disorders, depression and suicidal thoughts and it’s only been elevated because of education, not because im lonely, i have a great best friend who i live with, which is why i know ill hate being at home.
Im moving back home because i can’t carry on with university it was too much for me, ive already solidified this desicion, ive failed the first year reguardless of if i change my mind so its out of my hands now, ive weighed out if i want to try a different course but i came to the conclusion it wasn’t the course that put me off i didnt dislike the course i disliked education it just made my mental health worse.
i have no clue where to go from here, i want my own flat in the city where i am now but i cant afford it im in a lot of negative numbers which i need to fix. I dont have really any ambitions and it scares me, i dont wnana be a bum, i wnana have my own apartment with my own life but leaving my friends in uni really bums me out i dont know what to do. i dont want to move home im gonna hate it and feel so lonely. i jsut dont know what to do.