idek if this is the right place to put this, i’m not in many subs, but ig i’ll see if i get some answers.
i recently met this girl on hinge, she came off as super sweet, loved the lovey dovey stuff and really appreciated how i didn’t keep my feelings bottled up and told her how i was feeling and we really started thinking we could be with each other for the rest of our lives really quickly bc we tend to rush our feelings like that. i do get these feelings of not being wanted a lot bc she texts back slow most times (she says she just forgets to respond or responds in her head) and also bc i get anxious texting people too much, like i’m bugging them. this is especially hard when i’ve yet to meet her in person.
anyway we talked for a few weeks with virtually no issues until she had a derealization/episode of psychosis recently (she said she has issues with those every now and then). since then she’s become kinda distant with texting and even told me she needed a step back from the whole situationship we have bc she was just not ok. but what really bugs me is that the day of the episode she said she doesn’t think we’re gonna work out because of my financial background (i am admittedly a privileged boy) and it didn’t sit well with her bc i don’t have to worry about getting a job over the summer (i’m in college and she’s working full time) or worry about whether i’ll come home to the power being out or not or if i’ll get food on the table that night.
it’s been a few days since then. i’ve been trying to learn more about derealization so that i can at least get an idea of how to comfort her when she experiences this again, even moreso in person, when that hopefully happens. she tells me i just don’t get it, i tell her that’s true, but i still wanna support her.
she’s on tiktok all day so i don’t wanna bother her if she still wants space, but now she doesn’t even know if she needs space or not. i’ve heard that these episodes can last from half hours to years, so maybe she could use the space until she’s ready to talk again, but it doesn’t deny the fact that she’s still on the fence about really being together, even if it is part of the episode. last night seemed like a breath of fresh air where she talked about her favorite movie, but she also started calling me “man” and “bruh” instead of the usual “babes” which is obviously getting to my head. but if only for a moment, it felt like things were back to normal and i let her know that i was happy about it, even if it was naïve to think that.
she hasn’t said anything since then and i just want to know and also tl;dr
am i being crazy for thinking she might not like me anymore? or is it just a mental episode i should just wait out?
i most likely left some important information out bc i’m just saying what comes to mind, so if anyone has questions, please feel free to ask. thank you for reading.