She ghosted him on september 2022, and from there, he made me watch every movie she showed him. Sometimes I believe he tries to make me dress like her. And a couple weeks ago, he posted on reddit about The loneliness he feels about this. I have been his girlfriend for 4 years now, but doesn’t seem to count on me for NOTHING. Doesn’t tell me nothing about it. He would say on that post that he cant believe what she did to him after everything they WENT THROUGH together and DID. On december 2022 he tried suicide because all of his trauma, adding this situation.
At this point, I dont know what to think about this, at the end of the post he’d say that they held eachother on his couch while watching her favourite movies (the ones he made me watch later). I don’t know how to help him because he doesn’t trust in me for this (hasn’t told me this but it feels like it) He doesn’t know I read all that stuff, Am I being paranoid or selfish? Am I being a bad girlfriend or person because of feeling like shit? I feel useless because he talks about his trauma with everyone but with me, makes me think I’m not as good as no one, incluiding his ex best friend. I feel like I’m never enough. It is like if she were the one he wanted to be with, but he stays with me to not be alone.
Pd: he is also an alcoholic person and has depression due to other things on his past, but also because of this.
