Hi I’ve never posted on reddit before but I really need help.
My boyfriend Aaron (M22) and I (M21) have been dating for 3 years. Hes not diagnosed with anything, but this past year hes developed a lot of signs/symptoms of schizophrenia. He has visual and auditory hallucinations. And sometimes delusions. Sometimes dissociation. These last 3 weeks it’s been very bad.
He’s hallucinating constantly. He is so fucking scared and exhausted. He seems to have like really intense hallucinations followed by dissociation. Hes just. Not himself. His eyes are tired and dull and all he really wants to do is just sleep. It’s breaking my fucking heart and I need to take him to the hospital.
That’s where the issues come in.
Aaron’s mom died in a hospital because of a mix up with two medications. They reacted badly together and she passed. Aaron was 15. The whole time I’ve known him he hasn’t seemed to have an issue with doctors/hospitals (for any reason other than money.) But this has seemed to resurface back into a delusion (at least I assume that’s what it is). I’ve brought up how he needs to go get help and he completely freaked out. He told me he’s too scared to go and that they’ll kill him if he’s there. I tried to reassure him that it wasn’t true and so many people go to the hospital and get taken care of. He is wholeheartedly convinced that he will die if he goes.
Shit continues to get worse after that. Hes either in a state of panic or dissociation. Hes hallucinating shit constantly. I’m tired. He’s tired. I tried to get him to go to the hospital yesterday. He was sobbing and begging me to stop asking and saying shit like “why do you want me to die.”
We were both crying and I tried to grab him and force him to go outside into my car. Not like. Violently or anything. Just holding/grabbing onto him tightly and trying to get him out the door. He’s bigger/stronger than me, it didn’t work. It was more just like wrestling for 10 mins and making no progress out the door.
We’re very poor. I have health insurance. He doesn’t. The nearest hospital is about 30 mins away. I would just call an ambulance and have them tussle with him but I know fucking ambulance rides can be hundreds alone. Idk. I just need advice. I’ve never delt with something like this before. So any advice on wtf to do and how this shit works and how maybe we will be able to afford this would be great. I’m getting desperate. Hes the love of my life. He’s just sick and needs help.