so i(16) am c#tting myself for 4 years, i am also having nervous breakdowns sometimes that i'm shaking, crying and shouting like it's the end of the world. i have so many suicidal thoughts i even have a suicide plan for 2 years. so relationship between my family is pretty awkard, it is a long story. and i also daydream so much that it started to affect my life. i also have a cigarette addiction. and i sometimes make distance between me and my friends for no reason that i can't help, i love them but i can't understand myself. so i talked with my parents several times that i wanted to go therapy, i even accept my mothers bad therapist that doesn't diagnose but gives just the pill (i thought maybe pills change my thoughts for a little). but they didn't let me. there's so much that i can't say in here but i wanna know, i want advice. do you think that i have a mental ilness or am i overthinking it? do i need a therapy?
