Hey guys, I need some advice
(Also sorry if this is kind of a venty post)
So there is this audition that is tonight and I have been stressing about it for a little bit now. I have been doing voice lessons with the musical director of the show and I have been doing Tap classes with the dance choreographers of the show. Basically a lot of people are expecting me to audition, but I just realized that I don’t think I want to do it anymore. I don’t think it is anxiety, I just think it that I don’t want to spend my summer doing a play. It’s weird, for a while I had been really into plays, but now it seems like I want to focus on other things, work on myself a little bit. But my anxiety is through the roof, I’m scared that something bad will happen if I don’t do the play. I am pretty sure it is my OCD and not my intuition, which OCD often says it is. Idk man, I’m just scared. I am also scared that if I don’t have something to do this summer then I might get in my own head and get anxious. But that might be also something I need to work on in therapy. I am also sick as well so that is probably why my anxiety is so high. Sorry for posting, this is more like a rant than anything.