Hey guys!
I’m using a throwaway because lots of my colleagues are probably looney toons as well.
I’ve been in the National Guard part time and full time for about 10 years now, and do accounting/random odd jobs to live. I was raised in a very cosmopolitan area to rich parents who believed that mental health was for sissies and barely-managed alcoholism was the way to deal with problems, I’ve always been a tall and relatively athletic guy who played contact sports so was never bullied or anything but I’ve never felt comfortable in social situations or around other people and have always been the second or third member of a group of popular guys (sometimes they were bullies I’m not proud to say). My mother has OCD, Anxiety and Depression while my father is a relatively cold and sarcastic person (this is important now) and I was recently diagnosed with PTSD, OCD and Anxiety by an outside psychiatrist (who I paid cash as every experience with army healthcare and especially mental health has been a joke) but after ending an alcohol binge that lasted about 9 years and two engagements (I ended them because I couldn’t handle how the girls always wanted to talk and be with me and go outside) I’m starting to realize I’ve probably been an autistic person who has forced themselves to suffer symptoms and further increased their issues. I’m sure this sounds relatively nonsensical but I’m genuinely confused as to what I should do at this point; I can’t work in person jobs for longer than a year and obviously have to make some changes but I have no idea how to go to the army and say “Hi I think I’m heavily autistic and have a plethora of mental health issues!, I can’t hold a regular job and have crushing anxiety issues” without them looking at me, chaptering me out and then making me into a joke (buddy with schizo who got committed was a huge joke in the TOC during warfighter that year)
