So, this isn’t exactly about me but is making my own mental health spiral down.
My friend and partner tried to commit suicide today. She said over and over that she couldn’t do what she wanted in life, that nothing would be as she wanted and that staying in this world knowing that, knowing that she could never be able to do the things she want for life, was a wasted of time.
She kept repeating via chat how sorry she was, that she couldn’t live any longer and that life is too much for her.
I ran to her house to see how she was doing and after some back and forth she agreed to keep living but saying that she would wake up every day feeling miserable, knowing how bad this world is and how she’s going to just waste her time for another day
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I tried to make her feel better and spent some time with her and try to idk, show her all the options she had and how there was other ways, that maybe she could accomplish her goals and live of that or I don’t know.
She left feeling better but I just don’t. I’m scared. Maybe one day I wake up and she is gone. I just don’t know what to do or how to help her. Also I feel like she will just keep suffering because of my stubbornness and selfish request. I know it’s normal to said people with this thoughts not to do it but I think I just made her suffering longer
She said she wanted to do things right an be happy but I’m still scared
Btw: she is a trans woman, is something that also keeps making her feel bad