I am queer person of mixed ancestry, dealt with much religious family many other kinds of trauma and had some breakthroughs. even though I am older, i have realized that my worldview does not make the most sense maybe. Coming from the gutter from the mud basically I was the nice one but realized thats not nice cause vultures move in on nice people i meet, also i had a conservative abusive religious upbringing, despite trying to understand the religion of my 'parents', people who abused and covered for abusers, for years, what actually brought me hope was a belief in MAGIC aka witchcraft, i had a coven when i was younger, and despite the great times i haven't totally felt in touch with them, finding some magic in truth, those that know know, my biggest question is kind of about acceptance, how do you figure out what's normal when you were forced to accept a bunch of fed up shit, like yeah money i like being able to pay for things, breaking the cycle, boundaries with enablers, independence, basic life skills, ill have you knwo i did dishes twop days in a row, i have my own apartment, but like people friends, i don't always know what to tell them, its like to i jump into my generational, multi trauma, arge religion conspiracy, explain that people never got me because my abuse was covered up and my siblings essentially exploited me, do i explain societal things like a perspective on ethnic issues which have always seemed important to the conservative religion and family i come from, in modernity do i simply explain my new views and reigion, idk i feel more free, i believe in found family, sometimes ageing is like trust issues and a whirl of past exploitation coming out, it is clear that institutions also exploit people as do businesses etc, i don't always rely on long posts about coming from the gutter to protect myself and get advice but when i do…
