I am relatively normal played sports growing up went to college etc work have friends and all. But something I don’t really talk about is a huge sense of emptiness I have inside. I have good days and bad days but in the back of my mind that emptiness doesn’t go away. I try to tell myself things will get better I will find purpose and all that but it haunts me. I struggle with buying into society and maybe it comes from fear but a lot of times I just don’t really want anything from this life in the sense of real cause. Sure new fast cars, traveling and meeting beautiful women, love and having a family sounds good but still there’s a void Maybe I am selfish but I just don’t really see the point of all this. I used to smoke a lot of weed and did other things that deepen this feeling but I quit and it still is there. I stare of into nowhere a lot thinking, I miss work sometimes. I question anything of enjoyment or self serving but yet I am a hypocrite. I could say I want to help people but that still isn’t enough. Are there people that can relate or am I too involved with my own mind? I don’t really suffer from substance abuse per se but I was required to have a filter for the post. Thank you for any replies
