Saw a kid watching a video with a trauma/disorder etc that had a name related to me and wanted to know if anyone that can throw down a list of potentials? I couldn’t really hear or listen to it all.
Raised in a perfectionist environment from very early ages
Very emotionally and physically abusive father, mother bounced in and out of my life
Self worth issues
Fear of failure
But also a fear of success – will be in a state of anxiety waiting for the situation to self destruct when things are too good – generally until I create the problem myself out of fear
Learned to lie as a form of just trying to keep everybody happy even if telling the truth as a possibility
Idk, just how they said it really resonated with me (then it got loud and i missed the rest) I was so eager to hear the rest to dive further into it. It was more specific than just a general diagnosis such as depression etc.
It started with a “C” ive heard thousands of generalized diagnoses before but this is the only one that I’ve ever wanted to bring up to my health professionals.
There was more that was in the video but my ass is so adhd thoughts and memory’s come and go so fast.
I know I probably sound stupid right now, it just really gave me some hope. I’ve never heard the fear of failure and the fear of success combined, or maybe I am just really late to the party.