In my early childhood I used to enjoy destroying things for a couple of reasons
1- when I felt I didn’t want to play with it anymore
2- when I felt I got too attached to something
And in general growing up I enjoyed causing harm to things and people, was too angry for no good reason XD
Entering my teenage years I started thinking about harming humans around me for no good reasons even my friends family and strangers
and I acted on these thoughts for some time.
Anyway right now I am around 19 years old and changed my thinking progress.
But I still have the urge to hurt people emotionally and physically most of time.
And recently I started to hurt myself instead every time I start making plans to harm others
I don’t find pain enjoyably so I think it’s mostly a good way to deal with these thoughts.
What do you think ??
(Don’t recommend therapy I ain’t going)