I (15f) have been feeling worse and worse lately even if Im 10 days clean from self harm and attempted to overdose three times as a cry for help / to get high. I dont want to anymore but the suicidal thoughts are still there. I cant stop thinking about how i’d do it, how my loved ones would react or about my suicide letter. I exhausting and I feel so guilty about doing this to the people I love. A friend of mine has been suicidal and its so heavy to carry. Im so scared for him and he doesnt want to get help. My girlfriend and bestfriend haven’t been feeling well either. School has been getting hard. I try my best in maths but I seem to be neglecting every other subject. Just the thought of being a concious being is exhausting but I dont want to die. I heard from my friends that psychwards are horrible but I dont know what else to do. I see a therapist everyweek but I dont feel better. Should I admit myself into a psychward?
