i’m gonna say this here and hopefully i get some advice. for the past few years of my life i’ve felt almost nothing emotionally, I feel the slightest hint of gratitude and a little happiness for a couple of hours if someone does something good for me but other than that there’s nothing. i’m 90% sure I love nothing and that if the people near me died I wouldn’t be upset or atleast not for long. I recently started talking to this girl but I feel nothing for her, every once in a while i’ll get a slight movement in my heart when thinking abt her but other than that when we hang out or anything like that i feel nothing. My mother cries about me being cold and distant but it doesn’t affect me whatsoever. I often have extreme violent thoughts towards others and myself and those don’t move me either. This year in my sports I did some incredible things and put myself out there to go to a great school. But there’s still nothing. it’s like i’m a void or i’m not a real person. I often fake a lot of my emotions and people telll me i’m a good kid and that I have a lot of emotion outside of my family, but i don’t care. idk what’s wrong with me i just want to have feeling and be normal
