I just posted some videos, took me a good while to put these out. A few of the videos are sharing the background as well as what actually happens as I was held and tied down against my will for over a week in the merheim clinic in Germany.
It took me a few years to get myself together since the insistent and to share what happened. I’m still in the process of integrating how angry I am. I also give an overview of how I am doing now, I’m driven by a maddening desire to improve things and to understand what the actual f is going on around here. The problem seems large. The solution intractable. Feeling desperate. I attempt as best I can to live my authentic self, which I find highly incongruent with the world around me. I do get excited about the prospect of concretely implementing change and making an impact in the world, but I’m also struggling to find the spine to engage with the world and to trust it.
Just a lost soul, trying to find his way back home.