i believe that it really never actually gets better either you die successfully or if you just want to accept the way it is and try to ignore it but it’ll never actually go away even if you take medicine and it takes that feeling away for maybe a decade it’ll always come back and the meds won’t work. you’ll be immune to it. mental illness is a disease there is no cure other than just death. ik it’s not the best thing for comfort to hear rn but it’s the truth. the hard truth. even if it seems so good for a while you will always be brought down by something on and on and on and on. the cycle never ends even if you’re numb to everything around you. you will always feel it deep down now ik accepting it and living on by it is the “reasonable” solution but i don’t get the point if that’s all there is to life. the bad parts will always eat up the good parts. and that’s how it’s just meant to be for us. and once you get to bad habits you can never actually get out. sure you can stop doing it but it’ll always be apart of you, inside you, in your conscious and i mean relapse is forever tbh. “recovery” is just another word for ignoring it and try n take it out of who you really are. i am who i am and there’s no changing thats reality. but people don’t understand because they don’t get it they never experienced any of it. they don’t see it as a disease but it really just is. it’s like saying there’s a cure for cancer.
