I need support, i have a therapist, but im not sure how to explain this to her.
Inside of me just feels.. inherently masculine, not in clothing, not in superficial things, but in my soul. It feels like theres someone with me.
It always has, i thought perhaps im trans because he sometimes tries to "come out" or sometimes i try to be him, and fail, but i realize… some part of me is girl, so that means im not trans.
It feels intense. its unmistakable. I feel him. He is there.
I feel him when i am just out in the world, he is with me. I look at the stars, there he is, I just walk around, Boom right there, anything in the real world i feel him so strongly.
Im not relgiious and i dont think this is anything super natural or religious but…. I feel something…