I’m not quite sure how to word this without sounding like I need to be put away and observed for 14 days, but for the last month I have been feeling more and more aware of being alive and being human. And not in the metaphorical sense of “wow isn’t it great to be alive” but in a “I have arms and skin and my brain is in my skull. I am breathing but I can’t seem to communicate, I can see with my eyes- but why? Why is this happening why am I in a flesh body?” I have been diagnosed with Anxiety disorder but ruled out of bi-polar and depression, i do suspect I have Adhd but i’m unmedicated for everything and wonder if i finally reached the point where meds are going to be necessary to calm myself. Every time i try to talk to someone about this feeling no one knows what I’m talking about. Like yes i am human. BUT WHY. My question is- is there a special doctor that i can talk to about this outside of a general counselor?
