I’ll try to keep it short. My boyfriend just moved in with my best friend and I. Unfortunately, I have had a past of bad partners and it’s had its long lasting effects. My best friend and I have been friends for 6 years and for some reason I can’t help but think that while I’m away at work at night that they’re fooling around or that there’s some level of intimacy happening between them. Now when he’s nice to her, or tries to include her in stuff that’s meant for just him and I, or even like today, offered to feed her more than me even though she was at home and I was on my way out to work. My partner from a year ago cheated on me while I was away at work so that’s where I think this comes from but idk why my best friend is involved in this negative thought process because I don’t think she would do that to me but then again her best friend did that to her so idk. Just lots of negative thoughts. Haven’t talked to them about it bc I don’t want to look crazy and also because I don’t want to make them uncomfortable. Trying to figure it out on my own. Yes, Ive been diagnosed with BPD and yes I’ve been diagnosed with C/PTSD.
